She glows and it's the doomsday of your heart
You're scared that she'll steal your man, but does she care?
There are junctutures you see, junctutures where you make a choice, you pick a path and walk on it
You claim that you're heart is hammered, you say that the 'right thing to do' wasn't worth it
The world isn't worth it you say
With every hit you play it small
At every turn you walk away
You say you're chill that way
"This is all that I want" you claim
This is enough you say
Is it enough though? Why do you then close your eyes when she's getting slashed on her way?
Why do you pretend to not look when she's fledgling but still making her way
You're so scared, just so scared
Excuses, cowardice,deception and hypocrisy of greatest orders
You are well aware
The emptiness that screams at you every night, the emptiness that kills your sleep
The emptiness that claws at you but you still refuse to move
At every point you have to step forward you step back and hide away
You tell the world it's a cozy blanket and you're happy that way
But are you? You are just scared aren't you?
So the day had come and you were made to stand at the gates
You couldn't dream of anything beyond the gates
There she was in the center, there she was alone
Your stomach is in knots, your heart twitching
You don't want to witness this but you cannot help you're dumbstruck
Frozen you watch and there she burnt
She went through hell
They cut her out, they whipped at her
She refused to give in her eyes still burning
She burnt all down and they all got tired
She rose in all glory like a Phoenix from her ashes
And she quietly walked out, chin up like a queen
You stood there feeling all these feelings
Jealous of her because she reminds you of all the things you could have been?
Does she remind you of a child you slaughtered? Does she remind you of the dreams you buried? Does she remind you of your pure deceit?
You cannot hate her though, you love her, you're proud
You want to learn from her, you want her to watch you grow
But you decide to watch from a distance, you don't want your murky feeling surround her
You're proud, you're in love, you're hurt and you're jealous
You walk back wiping your tears
If not a queen I can be a soldier
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